Here I sit at my computer, wondering what my place in this world really is. I know God has a plan for me, but... People tell me I am a neat person, I have heard blessed, passionate,dedicated, ect... I feel that I am some of these things, but wonder where does this play a roll in my life, am I the person God really wants me to be? Do I do the right things, the wrong things, what should I do better, can I do better?
I know that I have only been walking w/ Christ since Feb 2006, but He has really worked through me, I feel that I have grown a tremendous amount, and He has put me w/ the people he has put me w/ for a reason. I have a few women that come to me for advise, guidance,and most of all fellowship. So this puts me in a big situation, I need to set my standards above and beyond " good enough". I have eyes on me all the time, and I sometimes fall into a spot where I am wondering what people think about me, I have always told myself not to worry what others think, I need to only be worrying about what the Lord thinks. Well true, worry about what the Lord thinks, BUT, look at the people around you , most of the people are non- believers, or new believers, if I fall back into my old way, the swearing, the temper, bad attitude, ect... My fellow brothers and sisters see that, and the lost people see that. I have a few Very close friends that look up to me and I find myself "slipping" when I am around them, they are slipping up too, and for some time now I have been saying to them that we as a team need to nip this in the butt!!!! They agree, but to this day I see very little change.
My pastor led a sermon series on shedding fruit, good/bad fruits... Well the way I see it is yeah these habits are hard ones to break, but everything I do needs to glorify God, how else am I showing these good fruits... I need to be on mission for my Lord and if I am only showing these good fruits inside the church walls, Im a fake, a failure to God and my peers, and above all myself. I have come to the conclusion that I have all of these feelings and callings to do good work for the Lord, and I strive to be this Godly Godly woman, well then I need to STOP talking about it and start acting like it!!!!!
In order to be this Godly woman I want to be I need to stop excusing myself, and my slips, and start holding myself accountable, I love the Lord more than words can express,
James 3:1-says: Brothers and sisters not many of you should become teachers in the church, for we who teach will be judged more strictly. And me being a small group leader that says a lot, and means a lot. James 3:7-12 says:7 People can tame all kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and fish, 8 but noone can tame the tongue. It is restless and evil, full of deadly poison. 9Sometimes IT PRAISES OUR LORD AND FATHER, AND SOMETIMES IT CURSES THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN MADE IN THE IMAGE OF GOD. 10And so BLESSINGS and CURSINGS come pouring out of the same mouth. Surely, my brothers and sisters THIS IS NOT RIGHT! 11 Does a spring of water bubble out with both fresh water and bitter water? 12 Does a fig tree produce olives, or a grapvine produce figs? NO, and you CANT draw fresh water from a salty spring.
WOW is all I have to say!!! WOW!!! Now how can I be so passionate about praising God and then "slip up" and use any kind of foul language... Makes a lot of sense doesnt it? Praise God for His teachings, and thank you Lord for opening up my eyes.
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Good Stuff Jenn! It really hits home. Philippians 4:13 "I can do ALL THINGS through Christ,who gives me strength". That is one of my favorite scriptures! Call on him, he is always there with his love,strength,and sometimes disipline, He will get you through, and when your done callin on Jesus, call me, I will be there for you as well, to pray with you, or just to be your friend.
The scriptures tell us: "Whatever you do, do it for the glory of God." ~ 1 Cor. 10:31
This is the hardest part of the paradox that we call our Christian walk... When we call Jesus Christ our Lord, do we LET Him be Lord? Do we just call Him Lord, or do we honestly bow our life to Him and LET the Lord be Lord!?
"Why do you call Me 'Lord, Lord,' and do not do what I say?" ~ Luke 6:46
Another part of scripture is inspiring. Isaiah 6:5-7 says: "Then I said, "My destruction is sealed, for I am a sinful man and a member of a sinful race. Yet I have seen the King, the LORD Almighty!" Then one of the seraphim flew over to the altar, and he picked up a burning coal with a pair of tongs. He touched my lips with it and said, "See, this coal has touched your lips. Now your guilt is removed, and your sins are forgiven."
i think beside being a mom being a christian is one of the hardest thing but if it was easy you would be fake. we have lived lives that most people cant even imagine we carry alot with us and it takes time for all that to fall away one thing i know is that you are a strong woman and god has called you for a reason you will be that godly woman it takes time ( i feel the same way ) i knew you before you came to the lord and have see how much god has changedyou and your life it is nothening short of a miracle love you
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This is what I read this week in "My Utmost for His Highest":
Repentance
Godly sorrow produces repentance leading to salvation . . . —2 Corinthians 7:10
Conviction of sin is best described in the words:
My sins, my sins, my Savior,
How sad on Thee they fall.
Conviction of sin is one of the most uncommon things that ever happens to a person. It is the beginning of an understanding of God. Jesus Christ said that when the Holy Spirit came He would convict people of sin (see John 16:8 ). And when the Holy Spirit stirs a person’s conscience and brings him into the presence of God, it is not that person’s relationship with others that bothers him but his relationship with God— "Against You, You only, have I sinned, and done this evil in your sight . . ." ( Psalm 51:4 ). The wonders of conviction of sin, forgiveness, and holiness are so interwoven that it is only the forgiven person who is truly holy. He proves he is forgiven by being the opposite of what he was previously, by the grace of God. Repentance always brings a person to the point of saying, "I have sinned." The surest sign that God is at work in his life is when he says that and means it. Anything less is simply sorrow for having made foolish mistakes— a reflex action caused by self-disgust.
The entrance into the kingdom of God is through the sharp, sudden pains of repentance colliding with man’s respectable "goodness." Then the Holy Spirit, who produces these struggles, begins the formation of the Son of God in the person’s life (see Galatians 4:19 ). This new life will reveal itself in conscious repentance followed by unconscious holiness, never the other way around. The foundation of Christianity is repentance. Strictly speaking, a person cannot repent when he chooses— repentance is a gift of God. The old Puritans used to pray for "the gift of tears." If you ever cease to understand the value of repentance, you allow yourself to remain in sin. Examine yourself to see if you have forgotten how to be truly repentant.
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