Wednesday, December 20, 2006
All I need to do is Glorify God!!!
Wow, just read my last post after I have calmed down a bit. I feel really bad, the vulgarity I used , I was venting, but... no excuse. Although it did feel kind of good to get it out a bit, but still wasnt glorifying my Lord. There is a way to get bad things put w/out using the vulgarity, and still glorify Him. I love the Lord and want nothing more than to just be a follower of Him, a true, honest, dedicated, give ALL the glory to Him, follower. I asked the Lord to direct me in editing my last post, I think its ok now. I rededicated my life last night, I was really off track for a bit. I hate that this could happen to someone, its so easy to to fall back into old ways, myself, Jess, anyone. God didnt say it would be easy, and let me tell you, being a christian is the hardest thing I have ever done, but the best decision I have ever made. I want to Glorify Him in all I do. Its not where I come from , or where I have been, Its who I am today and what I am doing today. I am saved by His grace and His blood, I know I have my ticket into Heaven. But I need to live my life His way not mine, I need to be pure in His words. I know I cant lose my salvation by my acts, but why on earth would I want to hurt the one who has saved me from complete damnation. So if you are wondering why I have edited my prior post, ( that is if you read it before today) this is why, you just read it. Jesus lives, loves, and saves lives. Im proof.
Tuesday, December 5, 2006
Convicted...
Here I sit at my computer, wondering what my place in this world really is. I know God has a plan for me, but... People tell me I am a neat person, I have heard blessed, passionate,dedicated, ect... I feel that I am some of these things, but wonder where does this play a roll in my life, am I the person God really wants me to be? Do I do the right things, the wrong things, what should I do better, can I do better?
I know that I have only been walking w/ Christ since Feb 2006, but He has really worked through me, I feel that I have grown a tremendous amount, and He has put me w/ the people he has put me w/ for a reason. I have a few women that come to me for advise, guidance,and most of all fellowship. So this puts me in a big situation, I need to set my standards above and beyond " good enough". I have eyes on me all the time, and I sometimes fall into a spot where I am wondering what people think about me, I have always told myself not to worry what others think, I need to only be worrying about what the Lord thinks. Well true, worry about what the Lord thinks, BUT, look at the people around you , most of the people are non- believers, or new believers, if I fall back into my old way, the swearing, the temper, bad attitude, ect... My fellow brothers and sisters see that, and the lost people see that. I have a few Very close friends that look up to me and I find myself "slipping" when I am around them, they are slipping up too, and for some time now I have been saying to them that we as a team need to nip this in the butt!!!! They agree, but to this day I see very little change.
My pastor led a sermon series on shedding fruit, good/bad fruits... Well the way I see it is yeah these habits are hard ones to break, but everything I do needs to glorify God, how else am I showing these good fruits... I need to be on mission for my Lord and if I am only showing these good fruits inside the church walls, Im a fake, a failure to God and my peers, and above all myself. I have come to the conclusion that I have all of these feelings and callings to do good work for the Lord, and I strive to be this Godly Godly woman, well then I need to STOP talking about it and start acting like it!!!!!
In order to be this Godly woman I want to be I need to stop excusing myself, and my slips, and start holding myself accountable, I love the Lord more than words can express,
James 3:1-says: Brothers and sisters not many of you should become teachers in the church, for we who teach will be judged more strictly. And me being a small group leader that says a lot, and means a lot. James 3:7-12 says:7 People can tame all kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and fish, 8 but noone can tame the tongue. It is restless and evil, full of deadly poison. 9Sometimes IT PRAISES OUR LORD AND FATHER, AND SOMETIMES IT CURSES THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN MADE IN THE IMAGE OF GOD. 10And so BLESSINGS and CURSINGS come pouring out of the same mouth. Surely, my brothers and sisters THIS IS NOT RIGHT! 11 Does a spring of water bubble out with both fresh water and bitter water? 12 Does a fig tree produce olives, or a grapvine produce figs? NO, and you CANT draw fresh water from a salty spring.
WOW is all I have to say!!! WOW!!! Now how can I be so passionate about praising God and then "slip up" and use any kind of foul language... Makes a lot of sense doesnt it? Praise God for His teachings, and thank you Lord for opening up my eyes.
I know that I have only been walking w/ Christ since Feb 2006, but He has really worked through me, I feel that I have grown a tremendous amount, and He has put me w/ the people he has put me w/ for a reason. I have a few women that come to me for advise, guidance,and most of all fellowship. So this puts me in a big situation, I need to set my standards above and beyond " good enough". I have eyes on me all the time, and I sometimes fall into a spot where I am wondering what people think about me, I have always told myself not to worry what others think, I need to only be worrying about what the Lord thinks. Well true, worry about what the Lord thinks, BUT, look at the people around you , most of the people are non- believers, or new believers, if I fall back into my old way, the swearing, the temper, bad attitude, ect... My fellow brothers and sisters see that, and the lost people see that. I have a few Very close friends that look up to me and I find myself "slipping" when I am around them, they are slipping up too, and for some time now I have been saying to them that we as a team need to nip this in the butt!!!! They agree, but to this day I see very little change.
My pastor led a sermon series on shedding fruit, good/bad fruits... Well the way I see it is yeah these habits are hard ones to break, but everything I do needs to glorify God, how else am I showing these good fruits... I need to be on mission for my Lord and if I am only showing these good fruits inside the church walls, Im a fake, a failure to God and my peers, and above all myself. I have come to the conclusion that I have all of these feelings and callings to do good work for the Lord, and I strive to be this Godly Godly woman, well then I need to STOP talking about it and start acting like it!!!!!
In order to be this Godly woman I want to be I need to stop excusing myself, and my slips, and start holding myself accountable, I love the Lord more than words can express,
James 3:1-says: Brothers and sisters not many of you should become teachers in the church, for we who teach will be judged more strictly. And me being a small group leader that says a lot, and means a lot. James 3:7-12 says:7 People can tame all kinds of animals, birds, reptiles, and fish, 8 but noone can tame the tongue. It is restless and evil, full of deadly poison. 9Sometimes IT PRAISES OUR LORD AND FATHER, AND SOMETIMES IT CURSES THOSE WHO HAVE BEEN MADE IN THE IMAGE OF GOD. 10And so BLESSINGS and CURSINGS come pouring out of the same mouth. Surely, my brothers and sisters THIS IS NOT RIGHT! 11 Does a spring of water bubble out with both fresh water and bitter water? 12 Does a fig tree produce olives, or a grapvine produce figs? NO, and you CANT draw fresh water from a salty spring.
WOW is all I have to say!!! WOW!!! Now how can I be so passionate about praising God and then "slip up" and use any kind of foul language... Makes a lot of sense doesnt it? Praise God for His teachings, and thank you Lord for opening up my eyes.
Living like a Christian
God spoke to me today, led me all over the bible. I have been praying for Him to make me more of a Godly woman... There are things I don that I feel I shouldnt be doing, Colossians 3:8. Well ALL of chapter 3 but verse 8 really hits home,I then was led toPhil 2:5, Matt 11:29,John 13:15,1peter 2:21, 1John 2:6, Psalm 116:7,Jer 6:16, All teaches about Christian Living. I find myself slipping w/ the swearing, and the not so nice thoughts. I have a temper, which I have gotten under control, but I feel that God is calling me to get it all right. I want so bad for people to look at me and see Jesus, when people talk about me I want them to say how Godly of a waoman I am. So my goal is to strive to be a Godly Godly Godly woman. I can taste it I want it so bad.I pray that God open my ears to His voice and I have the ability to take in what He is telling me and apply it to my everyday life.
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